First of all, I'm so sorry >;
I know this is so wrong, I want people to read my blog but I'm not putting any effort in keeping this blog alive.
Sometimes I just think editing, typing and thinking are too tiring for me.
But whenever I see Jannie (http://janniephant.blogspot.tw/) updating with good words that simply touches people hearts make me feel that I'm so... lazy? Lazy is not even enough to describe how I feel lol wtf.
Sometimes I just wanna blog rubbish up, like random shitz or emo craziness or anything but again, who would want to read blog that totally leave you with no clue right?
And I'm not even good with words, not chinese, not english. Urghhhz I'm so sick of myself.
I'm so sick of myself feeling sick of my life.
And I'm gonna go bath now cus it's 4.30pm now and I'm going to my ahma's house around 6, usual Sunday. I take one hour to bath on Sunday cus I need a beauty bath.
Most of the time I don't really enjoy Sat and Sun as much as others. I mean of course it's good to take a break from school, you don't have to wake up early. But when I wake up, it means I have to spend my afternoon doing housework. Like every Sat and Sun ley. And it's getting even worst now cus my mum finally know how to use computer and she has been going Facebook or random website.
Yesterday, she ask me to do housework and while I was busy sweeping floor, guess what was she doing? YES USING FACEBOOK! I still know how it feels whenever she cleans the house and I sit infront of the computer she'll start nagging about I don't help her blahx3 and now?!!
Gosh oh god gosh god. Today too, she ask me mop the floor but before that she'll help me sweep the floor and guess what? She didn't. No la she wasn't using fb this time round but she started scolding me again for doing things very slow. Like hello? You're da one who say wanna sweep the floor, I was waiting for you but no I end up sweeping the floor myself AND mopping the floor. Okay la she got help in mopping the floor but I'm like... I help you do also get scolding. Correct meh?
And I really need to go bath now.
Next week is my last week of school. (OH NOOO) I know I have been hoping for holiday but not a holiday that I'm grounded (cus maths don't go well with me) and still have to pretend to prepare for me exam on 27/28Jan. It's University Entrance exam but since I'm not taking this exam's result to apply for my Uni so I don't really give a damn ley.
Okay Heather, think of the goooooood things.
- I'm going Sabrina's house next Fri to take a video. Not such interesting one but come'on it's a new video eh WOOHOOO!
- I'm finally going to curl my hair on 25 Jan. (If nothing goes wrong) Have been stucking at the stage where I really wanna cut my hair cus somebody kept saying my hair is dying *and stupid enough I actually let myself be affected by his words oh well* but I have been keeping my hair for a very long time already and this is like the longest in my whole life?
- Gonna dye my hair again after I perm my hair la (and probably for the last time). It's gonna be either dark red or something near my natural color.
Fuck my life, fuck you.
Erm I haven't been going Formspring (http://www.formspring.me/HeatherLCC) for ages but you still can look for me there. I promise I'll reply, one day. Love you xoxo
p.s/ I wanted to upload some pic but Blogger don't let me... BLAME BLOGGER OKAY ^^
I know you have been half-way across the world from me for the last 18 years of our lives but I have never forgotten you! It's good for me to have finally found a way to tell you how much I miss you. You think your life is hard, we should compare notes sometime. I wish you could come home (I will always consider USA your home) just so I could spend a few days with you. I love you, your big brother, Paul !!!
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